On Looking Past College
Every kid lives there lives looking at people older than them with the eagerness to quickly catch up. Even now, I still have that little part of me that looks up and see the people that were once my schoolmates making way in their real lives. It makes me anxious and scared because I don’t know what I want.
Instead of studying, I’ve been perusing my usual internet social networks peeking into people’s lives, and I end up stumbling onto my cousin’s facebook. Now, she’s a teacher and it’s inspiring to see all the little things that make her happy about her job. Here’s a picture of one of her student’s work:
I found it so difficult not to laugh out loud. At the same time, I though, I used to be there. Then I saw this something else she posted:
“So happy. 5 of my below grade level students in reading are now on grade level!”
It’s inspiring to see someone I know be so happy with what they do, making head way, living the graduated life. It makes me see that college is just so small. Right now, college is everything, but once you graduate, that’s it. The only thing that really keeps you coming back are the calls asking you for donations.
The question I’m left with is “what will i do?” What do I want to do? I have so many options, yet none of them really seem feasible to me or that attractive. I can only hope that I’ll be where I want to be and look as happy as my cousin.
